Tales of towns

  I had a wish to make, so strong it can move the mountains , so soothing it can mute the ocean voices, So focused it can blur an eagle's vision But guess where it took me, To a land of nowhere where I found my real self. Like most of us, I grew up watching CID and was really fascinated by what all Dr. Salunkhe did. Eventually my interest in forensics made me want to be a surgeon. By the time I reached my 10th standard I was sure I would go for medical and I did. I opted medical stream in my +1,+2 despite my family, friends and even counselor's suggesting me to not but go for humanities instead. Anyhow I did what I had always thought of. 11 began, so did my coaching and i completely dedicated myself to studies. School, tuitions, assignments, self study was all that I wanted/could have around me. Like every other student I too didn't have a good start, I was not getting results as good as efforts I was putting, nor was I able to cope with school and coaching. I kept going, s...

 There are million cacophonies of our mind and heart echoing so violently. Sometimes it pushes us to do better , but sometimes it takes us down into a loop of despair. Hello, I’m Emilia from Helsinki, Finland. I am a 27-year-old singer, musician and singing teacher. I have been singing and performing since I was 10 years old. I have a bachelor’s degree in music and specialisation in vocal teaching. This is an anecdote of what I’ve been feeling for a really long time. I know many people go through millions of insecurities on everyday basis but don’t really pay much attention to it. Changing negative outlook on things and being really confident of ourselves is really important. Performing has always made me nervous. I’ve always been thinking a lot about what others think of me. Usually I over-analyse every look and word negatively towards myself. In the past I used to compare myself a lot to others. I was very hard on myself and blamed myself for even the smallest of mistakes. At one...

                     Round and round we go in this merry go round, Where every end is the beginning, and every beginning is the end. We keep on losing people, but the ride never stops. I have always been an average person, but had an ambition and dreams to fulfil. Everything was going by the books of fate and it seemed pretty good, but then my life turned upside down due to a series of incidents. On 7 th  July, 2015 we welcomed a baby boy in our house who happened to be 17 years younger than me! There were blue balloons floating everywhere, sounds of laughters and giggles were playing in every corner of our house. We felt like flying over the fields of strawberries and candies. But that feeling didn’t stay for long. In 2016 a day before my birthday, my mother got a paralysis attack and was hospitalised immediately. I was just 18 years old then and had to look over my nine months old brother. I had ...

      I see myself glooming in midsummer field and there’s the sun shining on me. Yes, she is my hues of happiness, a warm gust of wind and my midsummer madness. She is my sun and I am her sunflower. How can someone be so captivating? How can someone change your days of winter haze into sizzling summers? I found answers to all my questions and I am here to share them with you all. There’s no confined explanation whether she is ‘The one’ for me. It’s the beautiful unexplainable feeling and love between us that made me fall for her. When you love someone, you can feel how surreal is the connection you both share and that’s how you know that you got ‘the one’.  Two years ago, we met on social media through a mutual friend and started talking. We hit it off instantly! From texting all day to late night calls, we were irresistible for each other. We were in long distance relationship for 1 year and 3 months. Of course long distance relationship is tough, but it gets tough...

I have a box of polaroids buried deep within my soul somewhere. All my moments of happiness, pain and love are captured in those polaroids. But I lost one polaroid, favourite of mine. Will you all travel with me to the darkest of places to find it ? At age of 16 when everyone around me were chasing happiness and capturing pretty moments, I gathered courage to face myself. When I was 13 years old, I felt I was different in a way than others. I hit rock bottom at that time as I used to spend numerous nights crying and being depressed. I realised and accepted the fact that I am gay which gave me more strength to look inside me and believe in my most imperfect parts. So I decided to educate myself about this and started surfing various articles on internet about homophobia and homosexuality. Watching web series helped me a lot and gave me courage for confrontation. I felt lost whenever I found myself in the middle of people. I was afraid of people’s perception of me.  But these thought...

  We all are surrounded by a crowd of unknown faces, with unknown intentions, lost thoughts and buried noises of mind and heart. Don’t you think physical features don’t do enough job of defining this crowd? Just like every girl next door I dream of having a well-settled life and a prosperous future. I have always believed in the power of relationships, be it friendship, love or family. But a few series of incidents tried to shatter my jar of dreams into pieces.  Back in April 2020, I started receiving obscene pictures from a fake ID on Instagram. I started receiving uncensored pictures which pulled me into a storm of self doubt, low self esteem and depression. The question I used to ask myself while looking at my reflection in the mirror was “ Is something wrong with my appearance?” But the real pain lies in the answer to that question. As it is our nature of blaming ourselves first whenever something goes wrong, I did the same.  Right after receiving those pictures, I wa...